Heart-Ache

Why does the heart ache whenever we feel sad or upset? Why does the heart feels uncomfortable when we hears unpleasant news? I really hated all sort of these feelings but somehow I cannot be excused. Why?

Today Jack walked me back (okay, he sort of heading towards the same direction) and I was quite excited. We was walking side by side heading back to our dorm whilst chatting. He was telling me that he will be leaving soon where his last working day would be April 26th. Then and there, I can sense the excitement and happiness he felt... But I was devastated.

This is sickening of me to feel upset over this! I have to stop feeling like this or else I am going insane~ 

Ngeline

Uh oh~

Feelings - Okay, I am admitting in being bubbly whenever I saw him i.e office or out. It feels strange that I actually feel good whenever he walk past (even though he did not look into my direction) and
I often had the tendency to stare at his back! Damn, I am screwing my feelings right now~

Man - To not be rude, I shall start with a brief introduction of him. Names D, originated from Malacca (just like me) & stayed in Cheng  (I lived there too!!!). He is not very tall, quite fair, average looking with toned body, average sized eyes, and he is a hell of a gentleman! He looks good in both casual & formal wear!!! Sigh~

Attitude - The main attraction I had on him is that he knows how to treat a lady well. It is darn difficult to meet a guy like him here~ Oh goodness, he is a real man, I shall say. He is very sensitive towards his surrounding, knowing what to do or how to act like how a man should be like when there are ladies around.

Bad - However the sad part is that he smokes and enjoyed drinking~ He drinks every single day!!! And I strongly suspected that he is addicted to GYM!!! He goes to gym whenever he has the chance to do so~ Sigh~

Confusion - So how? My friends told me that I am being obvious in liking him already (not towards him but my group of friends BUT I don't felt so at all).Somehow the good part is that he seemed oblivious about this~ LOL~ I will have to buried my head if he knows!

Destiny - I shall let my fate decide my destiny~ Lol~


Love, shall we?
N-geL

Little Life~

Animals - Never I am a fan of animals, big or small. Not that I hated them but I'm just bluntly afraid and scared of them. Dogs... Cats... Mice... all of them! I know those animals are a nice creature but still, I fear of them. Lol! Anyway, 4 months back, my mother bought a sulphur-crested cockatoo parrot - to my amazement because my mother dislike animals. 

Hello - I secretly named the parrot "hello" because whenever I said "hello", I get his attention (It is a male parrot)! Hello is very adorable but sometimes annoying. He is adorable when he started dancing but annoying whenever he feels agitated as he will make plenty of unbearable noises, bite something (whatever there is in the cage), and spilling the sunflower seeds to the ground. Sometimes my mother got frustrated, she fed him chili padi! Surprisingly, Hello loves it!!! Lol! Guessed he's a true Malaysian after all!

Picture - See! How well posed Hello is!!! My brother uses his brand new Sony SLR to capture this picture. At least, Hello willingly allowed my brother to take a few shots of himself, else he will look away and continue with his "one...two...kick!" dance routine. Lol!

Addition - Also as an addition to my family, my brother bought me fishes! He gave me an aquarium together with all the needed equipment as well as the fishes. He bought 20 fishes of neon tetra and glow-light tetra and 1 alga eater. That pathetic alga eater were lazy!!! Anyway, only 4 glow-light tetra survived (It is not my fault as my brother did not install the bubble air pump!). 

Guilty - So as my brother felt guilty for "killing" my fishes, he bought me another 6 unknown name fishes and 2 chinese alga-eaters. At least my aquarium looks better now. Hehehe... It is good to the fact that I do not need to spend any money on my fishes as my brother becomes my main sponsor on this. Yippie~

Before the deadly massacre - 20 fishes of neon and glow-light tetra

After the deadly massacre - 4 glow-light tetras & 6 unknown name fishes

Anyhow, they look nice anyway ; )

Chirp chirp~ Bloop bloop~

N-geL

Dream of Love

I am lost

I am blinded 

And I could not hear a thing

My heart will not function normally

The paces are uneven

It beats a little faster than usual

I could not breathe

I am suffocated

Drowning

My body frozen

Benumbed

What had happened to me?

My brain

Drunk, unconsciously

Why?

I know why...

I am in love...

With a man...

Dreams that dreams of you~

N-geL