Old & New

Sigh~

Okay I know it is not right to start with sighing but I could not help it. Here comes the end of 2009, the beginning of another brand new year… Here comes goodbye to my previous dreadful year and hello to my brand new year; 2010!!!

Sigh~

I am forced to wave goodbye to a few of my precious friends as it is time for them to take a step forward to another phase of life. I am, still, lacking behind and it kills me each time thinking about it. A few are married with kids, some study, work, or migrated abroad, graduated (and planning for vacation!), dating, etc BUT I am, still, nowhere near there! Arghhhh!!! It is driving me nuts!

My erstwhile roomie shifted and I missed her already… Sob~ Somehow I have been blessed and am rewarded with a NEW roomie (I strongly believe it is due to me being an angelic saint!!!) LOL! Well, I know I am an extremely kind person… **cough** At least I will have a good start of 2010, with a new roomie, and I hope I will have a very good bonding session with new roomie too~

I seriously hope to have a memorable bonding with those I am, recently, close with & hopefully we will spend many of our precious time together, outing, gathering, celebrate, celebrating nothing, and the list shall go on... Ngek ngek ngek!!! I am very excited! Dang, I am revealing my foolishness...




5... 4... 3... 2... 1... HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!!!
N-geL

Brainless Barnyard Beast

I can't seem to understand why there is a brainless barnyard beast living in the same house as me. HE, the brainless barnyard beast enjoyed hastening into bathroom whenever he alarmed by my returning from university or outings.

DAMN! I am PISSED!

That brainless barnyard beast actually bathe for an hour or so & takes another half-an-hour pampering himself with his stuffs (HE gets out from the bathroom and return with a bagful of stuffs)! He takes his own sweet time slapping and pampering himself in the bathroom without having any considerateness for others.

I am really hacked off by that pudding head brainless barnyard beast!!!

Why with all the trouble of rushing for the bathroom with a lady? GOD! He could have just open HIS damn retard mouth and asked if it is alright for HIM to bathe first. I would be glad enough to allow HIM to do so...

I just don't get it! Why does a GUY actually shower for an hour or so? Bathing whilst counting the number of HAIR he had on his body? DAMN!

It's the relationships event

Believe it or not, I have got a really successful campaign ever!!! My team and I managed to spread the rightful feelings, hypnotize them, just the way we want them to! What makes the event even successful is the support gained from various audiences, e.g. the seniors, students from other courses, and last but not least, the tutors and lecturers! Wow! Kudos to the entire team!

It is quite painful for me of not being in the event hall as I am in charge of the Press Conference section. So you may figure out how devastated I am being stuck in another “boring” room. But of course, the press conference section is being praised as well for the very well done job! (Ehem ehem...)Bravo to my team and I again (those press conference members). Yes!!!

Throughout the entire event, the lighting, the PA Systems, the videos are all very well managed! Good job to the IT and technician team! I hate to admit this but they did an extremely well task as compared to the previous campaigns, majority of them have had technical error. I am, of course, proud to announce that my campaign is the first campaign to owned the title of “BEST CAMPAIGN” (It's a self declare title actually) Muahahahahahahahaha!!!

I hardly believe the fact that my team members and I have had a really great team work together and each and every one of us actually compromise to each other’s needs and responsibilities. We behave maturely and of course we all learn about each other which lead us to have quality relationships among ourselves! Yippie!!! All of us managed to get close together and enjoy every moment of success together. It is unbelievable.

Mission Impossible?

Wo-Hoo!!! I did something out of my expectation today! I challenged myself to overcome my fear and YES! I did it! Well, actually I went on to catch a movie today, ALONE! It is a challenging situation for me as I normally don’t do outings alone. I know, I know… See, that is why I am urging myself to do things that I normally won’t do.



I went Tropicana Mall to catch Twilight: New Moon movie all by myself and I am excited! I hardly believe the fact that I did it. There are a few more things that I did which I did not expect I would, and I am amazed. Seriously, I believe I needed some changes and therefore I challenged myself.

I guess I realized that I need to live as if I am dying soon; world end? Anyhow, I am extremely proud with myself as I carries the brand new me in ME. I make new friends almost every day, smile to almost everyone I meet, and respecting & appreciating what I have right now.

I strongly believe that this bold attitude of mine comes from the influences of my campaign, my experiences with my friends, and of course speeches which I had attended. I am truly thankful for all those awakening “slaps”! LOL!

Okay now comments on Twilight: New Moon... I have to say it is quite funny actually AND I totally totally think that the written version is indeed better! Other than having glimpse of Jacob's sexy body, I don't find anything else interesting (except that Alice is prettier!)

The whole movie is quite pathetic but somehow I LURVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE them!!! LOL! I just love vampire movies, so yea...


To Do? OR Not To Do?
N-geL

Luck-Less Me!

Actually I'm not hoping much in gaining or having anything...but somehow if I'm lucky, I might have something~ Sigh~ That pathetic fellow just missed my lucky number by 1 digit, yes one digit...

My lucky a.k.a luck-less number "056" and that pathetic fellow announced "055" Can you believe it? The grand prize is indeed luxurious and yes, I couldn't have it because that PATHETIC fellow pick the wrong NUMBER!!! Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

The saddest part is that the "fellow" I mentioned are really macho and "man-ly" and CUTE!!! Yikes!!! Else I would have the chance to "hold" and somehow try to "grab" his super "man" hand!!! kekekekeke

Sigh~ Nyway, I missed those chances but it's alright. God IS fair! God put me in to a situation where "Lizard" & me able to stood closely to each other. Muahahahahahahaha Seriously I don't like the way he look at me (He looks at me as if I did something sinful to him). Or maybe he's trying to play it cool? But often enough, I realize he kept on looking at me during classes (Well, I have to admit that he looks at me maybe because he realize I kept on looking at him). Muahahahahahahahahahaa

Silly~ Silly ME!


Luck? or Luck-Less?
N-geL

Life hurts...

For the past 23 years of my life, I have never seen mummy in her sick bed, looking extremely weak. It is pain to the eyes and heart to see her in that condition. Mummy was diagnosed with a cyst growth in her right ovary, so the gynecologist advice mummy to go for an operation. Well, she did and not she is well again but weak. I remember seeing her in the hospital bed lying unconsciously with tubes and needles. It is very painful. I cried. Hmmm…

Suddenly life seemed a little scary to me. I hate the fact that one day our loved ones will leave and rest peacefully in heaven. I hate the fact that love hurts even when it is sweet and blissful. I hate the fact that one had to go through mountains and rains in order to taste success and happiness. I hate almost everything but loved at the same time. I know I sounded insane but yes, this is what I am feeling.

I regret of doing things that hurt their hearts and regret doing it. I regret having to feel regretted. I am sick of having a slight pinch in my chest when I regretted on something. I have plenty of regrets. But if I were to have a turn-back-time, I will not change a single action. It is what I did in the past that leads me to where I am and how I am now. Without past and history, one is nothing but a plain sheet of paper without life.


Sigh~ I hate it when I hate it.
N-geL

Sicky Week

Exams over…

Results coming…

I’m worried hell and I’m scared…

But…what bother me most is..F-Y-P!!!
Hmmm…

And makes matter worse is I’m stuck at home…
Haih~~

What can/should I do???