The End of February

I am not pleased at all though it is the last day of February... I am the biggest fan of all month-end but not today. Okay I am upset with my wages (I should have more than the amount I got!) & I am not able to have the shop-till-you-drop kinda event anymore!!! Sick!!! The management are sucking up all the CNY payments as well as the double-pay payments. Darn!

That is the grand opening of devastation. Here comes number two; pathetic colleague a.k.a friend. Her name's self-pity. She thinks the world owes her & she thinks that she's the only,one person that are very unfortunate. Shame on her to have those thoughts! Shame on her... I have to admit that I am very sensitive towards her words and actions due to the closeness and bonds that we had. She, a foolish girl, chooses to take everyone's love & kindness for granted. It will never be enough for her.

I on the other hand chose to walk out of her (nah... I am still considering). It is very frustrating to have miserable friend whom share nothing but misery. I had given her uncountable chances to be grateful & happy yet she pushed everyone away... I am sick and loathe of her attitude! Darn! I am no Mother Teressa & I am no Gandhi. I have tolerance limits & I guessed she did not realize that, yet. She is driving me nuts with her foolish yet pathetic comments which drowns my happy moments... She is such a misery...

The last but not least occurrence that causes unhappy events was the announcement of portfolio rotations. It will be effective from 31 March onwards (and I really hope those days will not come).  Sigh¬ Nothing stays permanently, right? 

Happy Days. Come... Come...

N-geL

Foolish Child

Dissatisfaction -  There was an act of mocking from my fellow designers (whereby some of them were my close friends) on a questionnaires given by my colleague. It is shocking to see them ridiculing executives for the dissatisfaction they felt about that particular questionnaire. I mean, what is the problem in filling up those papers? It is just a questionnaire!!! They were jesting at executives by saying plenty of ugly painful comments i.e. "We want to learn to polish bosses shoes, clean/wash their feet, & suck their toes". The upsetting part was that this statement mentioned by my close friend a.k.a designer. 

Personal - Why are they taking all these rules & regulations personally? There is no right & wrong nor there is no need of comparison. If people were to compare everything in their lives, then there will be none that would satisfied them. When will they ever teach their inner child to learn to grow up? Seriously, they are such a pain in the ass!!! It is very disappointing.

Hell~

N-geL

A Selfish Brainless Barnyard~

Self-Interested - I cannot believe I am living with a selfish freak!!! God knows how self-minded she is! She enjoys making assumption of others and never bothers to use her pea-sized brain to think… Oh God, please give me strength to face such kind of people. I could not describe how angry and furious I am right now because I had been repeatedly being exposed to her virus!!! How much longer can I bear? GOD!!! Alright, let me narrate the story just so everyone can understand~

Story – I went for my replacement class this morning (I do not have classes on Fridays) and my class ended at 11am. So this pathetic brainless barnyard asked if I wanted to have my brunch and before I could answer, she said she does not want to eat yet. Then I told her we will go get her blood test report first since it is still early (and I never claim of not wanting to eat). So I drove her to Damansara Utama to get her report whilst to pay her semester fees as well. I waited patiently in the car without grumbling or whatsoever. Finally, every chore is completed so we headed back home. I took my shower and wash my clothes (assuming I might be able to catch my late brunch later with her) and once done I headed downstairs to get my clothes hanged. WTF!!! I saw her sitting at the living room table unpacking her McDonald!!! So I asked her why she not asked me whether I wanted a set of that too and she bluntly replied “I thought you said you would not want to spend much money already so I did not ask. Plus you said you don’t want to eat.” What is the F&^*^&@ wrong with her brain? I DID NOT MENTION ANYTHING ON NOT WANTING TO EAT!!!

Silence – Sigh~ I am speechless on her bravo thinking skills, literally! We are roommates!!! Of course we have our lunches together or if she does not want to have lunch, she can just tell~ GOD! It is indeed obvious that we will have lunch together after we are settled isn’t it?

Heck – One of my friends told me that I should have know and get myself prepared for live-together disaster and yes, I take her advice for granted. I should have seen it coming! Damn! It is darn frustrating, ya know~ I can never be more thankful to God for having 2 wonderful roommies previously and I know they both had always cared about me. Seriously, I have never ever encountered a so much self-interested person in my life~ (exclude stranger, alright) C’mon we are roommates, we should look after one another and concern about each other isn’t it? Damn Damn Damn!!!


F-ish You!!!
N-geL

I am smart yet stupid

Bright – Since young I realized that I have the capabilities in learning fast and think fast. But do not get me wrong, academic wise I am not that intelligent! LOL! I am more of the practical or application person. I do not have like 1000GB or whatsoever and let me clarify that I owns like maybe 1GB memory space! I could not remember things clearly or being able to memorize anything easily, so yea~ anyway, among my peer group I consider myself bright. Sometimes I do get irritated at other’s imbecility; e.g. stuffing a key into a pad lock. Everyone knows that the flat part should face upright while the crooked face downwards BUT still some people just enjoy stuffing it the other way and ended not being able to stuff the key into the pad lock. WTH!!! Pudding head!!!

Dullard – In another angle, I am a half-wit! Seriously! I am very easily being taken for granted, being exploited, get hurt in various ways (emotionally and physically), and there might be more to list. I had many acquaintances merely because I shared my knowledge. They never speak to me in or out of class but they DO speak to me when finals are just around the corner. Whoa! How bogus are they! Even my group members are getting a piece of me! They and everyone knew I would not left things undone. So here I am being a moron…

Benevolent – Call me pathetic but honestly I could not be ignorant towards those dullards although I noticed myself being exploited by them. Sometimes it is not easy to turn blind eyes on as I feel bad, bad for not being helpful. As furious as I may be, I forgive them overtime. Gosh, c’mon, how long can I be angry? Frustration and anger haunts me but sometime after it would all gone.

WTF! - The only action I can do is remain silence and silence and still... silence.  The only time they realize I am upset is when I remain silenced for a very long time.


Zip your lips, please....
N-geL

Nobody expect you to be omniscient!

Friend – According to certain quotes, a person could only consider as a friend when everyone walks out during your hardship and the very person stays to walk you through the pain. It is never easy to have friends because I realized many are either in love with themselves way too much or there is just a need of “connection”. People who favor “connection” are mostly those who live or enjoy the same kind of lifestyle or attitudes. Try noticing those around you. You will be surprise to see only the clowns live with laughter, the miserable stuck in pain, the knowledgeable favors formality, and so on. Of course there is some exemption in certain circle of friends where there is a mixture of clown, miserable, knowledgeable, or etcetera. And so to say, I am involved in this circle. Weird and unique, that is what I named my group.

Weird & Unique – After 2 years of dispute among ourselves, finally we reached to an end. No, not our journey ended but argufies. Of course I am happy but there is only one problem left, the miserable is still there and there is nothing my group and I can do to retrieve the miserable from pain. And to make matter worst, the miserable is rubbing the pain on all of us! Omitting the miserable, my group and I are having a great bonding session!!! Let’s see, my group consists of a hyper that could break a bone with merely her voice, a vulgar freak that turns every vulgarity into bible, an obnubilate that cloud every single thing she touches, and of course the normal kiddo, ME! Ngek Ngek Ngek

Creep – Why would a person enjoy being a spook when they had many other choices? I am sorry to admit that there would not be any second chance (after all the numerous chances given previously for the very same fault) as I could no longer being the good Samaritan. I could not be saintlier than any normal homo sapiens, seriously! I can no longer bear being ambush repeatedly without shielding myself. Nope, not the hurt but it is the narking sensation that bothers me a lot. It boils my anger right to my bone!
Unsolved - I am discombobulated by this pathetic creep! Seriously I am sick to core of such willy-nilly troubles and God; I wished it would all go away. I felt bad for putting on a cold shoulder at that creep; then again it serves that creep right! Ouch! I know… I upstage that creep already and now that pathetic creep is turning into a brainsick mannequin statue! Gosh! What should I do? Uh-oh the truth is out there~~

Frontal – Sooner or later I have to bare a piece of my mind to that creep, right? Name me chicken, call me coward but I honestly could not faced that creep at the moment. Hell, I got pissed at every apparent motion that creep made. I need time to be able to recover from such crap and I need an advice for this~

Lusus naturae?
N-geL

Brainless Barnyard Beast

I can't seem to understand why there is a brainless barnyard beast living in the same house as me. HE, the brainless barnyard beast enjoyed hastening into bathroom whenever he alarmed by my returning from university or outings.

DAMN! I am PISSED!

That brainless barnyard beast actually bathe for an hour or so & takes another half-an-hour pampering himself with his stuffs (HE gets out from the bathroom and return with a bagful of stuffs)! He takes his own sweet time slapping and pampering himself in the bathroom without having any considerateness for others.

I am really hacked off by that pudding head brainless barnyard beast!!!

Why with all the trouble of rushing for the bathroom with a lady? GOD! He could have just open HIS damn retard mouth and asked if it is alright for HIM to bathe first. I would be glad enough to allow HIM to do so...

I just don't get it! Why does a GUY actually shower for an hour or so? Bathing whilst counting the number of HAIR he had on his body? DAMN!