Little Life~

Animals - Never I am a fan of animals, big or small. Not that I hated them but I'm just bluntly afraid and scared of them. Dogs... Cats... Mice... all of them! I know those animals are a nice creature but still, I fear of them. Lol! Anyway, 4 months back, my mother bought a sulphur-crested cockatoo parrot - to my amazement because my mother dislike animals. 

Hello - I secretly named the parrot "hello" because whenever I said "hello", I get his attention (It is a male parrot)! Hello is very adorable but sometimes annoying. He is adorable when he started dancing but annoying whenever he feels agitated as he will make plenty of unbearable noises, bite something (whatever there is in the cage), and spilling the sunflower seeds to the ground. Sometimes my mother got frustrated, she fed him chili padi! Surprisingly, Hello loves it!!! Lol! Guessed he's a true Malaysian after all!

Picture - See! How well posed Hello is!!! My brother uses his brand new Sony SLR to capture this picture. At least, Hello willingly allowed my brother to take a few shots of himself, else he will look away and continue with his "one...two...kick!" dance routine. Lol!

Addition - Also as an addition to my family, my brother bought me fishes! He gave me an aquarium together with all the needed equipment as well as the fishes. He bought 20 fishes of neon tetra and glow-light tetra and 1 alga eater. That pathetic alga eater were lazy!!! Anyway, only 4 glow-light tetra survived (It is not my fault as my brother did not install the bubble air pump!). 

Guilty - So as my brother felt guilty for "killing" my fishes, he bought me another 6 unknown name fishes and 2 chinese alga-eaters. At least my aquarium looks better now. Hehehe... It is good to the fact that I do not need to spend any money on my fishes as my brother becomes my main sponsor on this. Yippie~

Before the deadly massacre - 20 fishes of neon and glow-light tetra

After the deadly massacre - 4 glow-light tetras & 6 unknown name fishes

Anyhow, they look nice anyway ; )

Chirp chirp~ Bloop bloop~

N-geL

No Idea~

Translation - Honestly, I can never decipher some of my friend's mind. Some are easy to decode and translate while some put me into zero translation. Sometimes or maybe most of the time their actions really surprised me and sometimes to the extreme of irritating me, emotionally. Sigh~ 

Again - Once again I foolishly and clumsily wore my heart on my sleeve while caused disappointment. Weird and stupid, I know but I can never say "no" to any of those I considered "friend".I am often rejected by those "friends" but somehow over and over again I welcome them and assist them when they are troubled by problems. Sigh~

Whatever - Anyway, I am not miserable or devastated so, whatever!!! LOL! It is almost like a routine for me to complain on stuff, so yea... But somehow thanks to other close friends, they actually bring out the best in me!And they changed me into being a humble happy person. After all why bother being upset?

Da Brainy Code?
N-geL

Confrontations..... not that bad after all~

Difficulties - Ever since I had a new roommie, I am constantly in lousy moods... No, it is not because roommie is bad, it's just that I could not accept the "self-interest" attitude. It is difficult for me to deal with people who don't bother or care much about another person, especially close ones. Sigh~ I had been complaining day and night to friends and loved ones & thanked GOD, finally, I had the guts to confront this issues.

Confrontations - Lucky for me, everything goes smoothly. There is no argument or fighting occur. I feel better after all those negative feelings being washed out of me, it feels free... At least I did not back-stab or spell illness about roommie. Sigh~ I had been having a rough time and finally I have my silky road!!!

Breather - I had always hated this "ill" feelings about another person and I swear I could not sleep tight unless I confronted that issue. So here I am, feeling better, breathing the rightful pace, and I feel "lighter". I have been having a hard time suffocating on all those negative aura for the past few months and suddenly I feel stupid for not dealing with the issue sooner... Stupid me~

A difficult child?

N-geL

Dream of Love

I am lost

I am blinded 

And I could not hear a thing

My heart will not function normally

The paces are uneven

It beats a little faster than usual

I could not breathe

I am suffocated

Drowning

My body frozen

Benumbed

What had happened to me?

My brain

Drunk, unconsciously

Why?

I know why...

I am in love...

With a man...

Dreams that dreams of you~

N-geL

Little Tiny Needle

Funny – Last Thursday I went to the clinic near my rented house to get a Hepatitis B vaccine and guess what? The down-to-earth kind nurses and doctor had an argument with me. Nobody can ever guess right on what we argued about; we argue about to do or not to do a Hepatitis A blood test. Whoah! The argument almost pisses me when the doctor and nurses finally gave in.

Story – Okay it goes like this. A month back, I got myself a full body checks up in one of the blood test lab as I often feel dizzy and almost fainted several times. So when I got the result from that blood test lab, I am not immune to Hepatitis B virus (and the lab lady urges me to get a vaccine). Hence I went to the clinic near my rented house to get the Hepatitis A & Hepatitis B vaccine as the clinic gives a very reasonable price. I told the nurses that I need the vaccine as I had already done the test and she asked if I got myself tested for Hepatitis A. I told her “no” as I only had Hepatitis B result but wanted both vaccines anyway. One of the nurses got upset and urges me to go back to the lab to “questions” the lab lady why she had not tested the Hepatitis A for me altogether. She kept on pushing and forcing me to leave the clinic and go straight back to the lab, so I told her “Never mind, I will get the Hepatitis A blood test here as you have such service, right?” and so hallelujah, the argument started. When she failed in the persuasion of getting me going back to the lab, it became the doctor’s turn to persuade me instead. Sigh~ it is just so frustrating! But anyway, they gave in and I won the argument.

Silly – Seriously I have never met anyone that is so darn honest and kind enough of not wanting to earn my money!!! WTH!!! It is so unbelievable!!! When I am in her consultation room, I asked her about the asthma inhaler which I often use and again, she gave me another shocking action; she wants to give me a new FREE inhaler!!! Oh God, she is just plain…kind?

Pain – Anyway when she jab the Hepatitis B vaccine into my vein, I felt the pain. It is quite painful and believes me; I have never been afraid of needles. The pain is still bearable but after she removes the needle, my hand went numb. And again, this lovely doctor commanded her nurse to get me a somewhat medicated drink. Do not laugh but that medicated drink is to calm me down and to make me feel unafraid already!!! WTH!!! The doctor treats me like a 10 year old little girl!!! Anyhow, Friday morning around 4am to 5am, I woke up due to the stinging feelings I had on my arm. Sigh~ I almost feel myself running back to the doctor to get another cup of that medicated drink! LOL! And until now I still feel that stinging pain with a limited arm movement… Sad... Sad… 

Jab...anyone?

N-geL

Melting Away

Hot - Darn! No, it is not the super hot sexy thingy but I am talking about the H-O-T weather!!! Gosh~ I can never have the right words to explain how hot I am feeling right now... It is more like being barbecued alive - 24/7!!!

Swimsuit - I came out with a fantastic plan actually, I proposed everyone to wear swimsuit (at home of course) because it is very convenient for us to just jump into shower/bath without having the need to undress our clothes + most of the home furniture is waterproofed. So.....what?

Ice Cream with extra ice?

N-geL

The Power of Z...

 

Sleep a.k.a Z - The unconscious state of mind during a deep relaxing rest was taken. I seriously need THAT here and now! 

Yawn~~

 N-geL