Showtime!

I did a movie marathon yesterday in Tropicana City after my Advanced PR paper. It feels so relaxing and I must admit I am quite relief, a ‘lil. Although there are not much food activity yesterday (which is better if there are PLENTY of food!!!), somehow I enjoyed!

My first flick:




Where Got Ghost? is a Singapore horror-comedy Chinese movie directed by Jack Neo. I don’t find the movie really nice but somehow it managed to make audiences have a good laugh. I don’t know the story seemed somehow weird to me (although there is moral-of-the-story thingy). The flow of the movie is separated into 3 parts; "Roadside Got Ghost", "Forest Got Ghost" and "House Got Ghost". The movie is trying to indicate that never try to offend or brag about ghosts and spirits.

My second flick:




Tsunami in Haeundae is a nice movie to catch. After all the flooded stress and tension in my mind (which I have been tortured for a month, and another 2 weeks to go), this movie somehow had drained my stress level. This movie shows the ugly sides of human as well as the good. Some would sacrifice themselves for another while some would be extremely self-centered. Hmmm… I cried like a baby in the cinema and I have to say it is NOT embarrassing! Almost all the presence female cried okay! (Hehehe… At least I’m not the girl who sobs yikes!)

My third flick:




The Ugly Truth! It is a nice movie (partly there are 2 cute guys) because I found some similarities of Abby Richter in ME!!! OMG!!! It is funny and factual. Like it’s title, the ugly truth about love, life, and sex! Yikes! It’s a must-watch movie if you luuuurrrrveeeeeee Gerard Butler because he is so yummy macho!!! Muahahahahhahahahahhahahahahaahah!!!!!


It had been a nice day though... More good days to come!!!


One Two Action!!
N-geL

Some people just love being miserable

People often encourage each other to be happy all the time. BUT have you ever noticed some people just love being miserable to keep them happy? No? Well, you are a real lucky being! I met and I have to interact with that sort of people 24/7! Well okay not 24/7 but almost for years! The next question from me will be “WHY enjoy being miserable just to keep you happy?”

I did everything I could to help BUT it’s a vain attempt! Sigh~ Perceptions, thoughts, assumptions, the way of viewing or seeing things are all nothing but a person’s personality. The way a person behaves, thinks, assume, or maybe sensing certain situation, things, or even a person are all base on their background. Everything a person does reflects on their background, what sort of person are they, what are their lifestyle, and much more. Sometimes prediction is applicable to them, too!

Nyway my main point is why this sort of people enjoy being miserable??? Miserable be it but why shower me with those suffering as well? Illogical isn’t it?

Nother painful experience I had encounter is having an ape around! I just don’t get it! Don’t all of us have our own mask to put on and characters to play? Okay maybe roles and characters are forgivable to impersonate BUT what about hobbies or the likes & dislikes or colours or choices of food or movies? WTF!!! Thank you very much but I enjoy having myself as the sole species! Gosh~

Seriously I hated many things in life especially a person’s attitude or character. I hate a person who loves being miserable, who loves to assume, who thinks negative, evil, or ill mannered, or those who enjoy taking people for granted. There more to list but never mind. No matter how concerned I am, things will still be the same…



Miserably…happy!
N-geL

Frensapiens...

I never truly understand why friends are sometimes sickening sapiens in life, really! I have to clarify that I DO love all my REAL friends (but I never know if they are the same) and most time I prioritize them after family (I’m the third in line, yikes!). I had been through rough and ugly moments with some of my acquaintances, friends, close friends, best friends, and ex-best friends and yes, it’s painful to the core! Gossips, boycotting, bad mouthing, pretender, slanted, and sometimes worse BACK STABBER!!! You name it, I’ve been through it! Sigh~

Nyway I am curios why do some friends are not friends? Or why are they being “selfish” at times? Or how come they are able to categorize or classify certain friends when that particular friend threats her/him like a family? W-H-Y?

Lately I have been feeling fag and worn out due to exam season & boredom sickness, so I am pretty much in sullen mode. Of course I am still all smiley and cherry to people I keep close to heart. What really disturbs me is…I am just CURIOUS…why friend’s friends couldn’t be my friend? Or why your friend could not hang out with me too? Why, of course I am not going to stash your friend away!!! I don’t know if this is the reason why some friend feels threatened. I don’t know…

I asked one of my bestie months back whether I am able to join her bunch for stress release vacation AND she hesitated. I understand she is concern about her crowd whether liking me (as an outsider) to fall in together, I really do understand. BUT what saddened me is she didn’t try to ask. If in turn I were her, I SWEAR I will persuade my crowd to let her in!

Okay maybe vacation is too much. Well, what about dinner union (just to sound cooler, eh)? She knew am having dinner alone, would it hurt or risky to ask me to join her & them for dinner? Wait, her friends knew me TOO!! I would NEVER do that to her or to any of my close best friends.

Another head-scratchy incident is when some friends would feel uncertain to spill out normal-everyday-conversation-topic/subject to me!!! LOL!! Sometimes my itchy mouth got itchy, I would ask “Who did you went out with the day before?” and the award winning answer would be “friend”! Oh gosh, am I being abusive towards your privacy now? I somehow believe it’s alright for friend to ask and concerned. (In sense of being KEPO lar!)

I read another friend’s friend e-diary blogging on why certain friends expressed ugly faces when most of them are having happy moments together. She is hitting the nail accurately in what I am trying to ask too! Hmmm…

I sometimes do feel invisible in my own world. I envy most of them for having wonderful external friends and I am indeed very happy for them. I stand and stare silently at the corner of their world and I BELIEVE none of them knew I existed standing there. It’s painful sometimes to see them so happy and being rubbed off from their wonderful world.

I guess I am losing my grip of importance in their life and wonder if it’s fixable? I don’t expect them to treat me like princess but somehow I wish I am and never will be forgotten like dust or rusty old machine.

Forget, forget me not!
N-geL

Sad Issue in Malaysia

Isn’t it funny how Homo sapiens can be really out of their mind sometimes? I am indeed extremely worried about the current problem that arises in KL where a group of unsatisfied Malays hold a demonstration. It is really sad to see those people attacking innocent animal like a cow, just because it is the Indian’s holly symbol. Gosh!! What could be leading these people into such act??

One of my close friend send me this link, go look at it http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0XHcHLB_Vss. Although the government had insisted of removing the video from the net but still there is no action taken! It’s really saddening to see that the government aren’t taking any action yet, whether towards those demonstrator or the video uploader…

Sadder...
N-geL

Dramaturgy

All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players...

-Shakespeare-

Life's a stage, each of us have roles to play...
We are all behaving like an actor/actress,
Presenting ourselves to the world according to what the world expect of us...
Sometimes we let ourselves down, not knowing what else to do..... or expect...
Don't some of you agree that lives are somewhat difficult?
But come to think again, life is actually easy... if we allow them to...

Let me rest now.
I'm tired of being "Pseudowood" (there's Bollywood isn't it?)

One Two ACTION!
N-geL

the torturesome of exams

Final Year Projects, assignments, projects, and class activities are somewhat annoying to me because of the requirement of finishing them in a very short period of time and also the selection of group members.

But what would be more annoying and disturbing than all those? Ah Hah!!! Exams!!! Heck, I got to admit that I really dislike exams... It makes me really sick on my tummy and my head! Aarrgghhhhh~~~~

Alright, maybe I'm exaggerating but hey, it's killing me each time I'm about to view my result slip. Okay! Okay! I know I am the one to be blame due to my perfectionist attitude and my high expectation mindset. Hmmm....

I am bearing a really heavy burden on myself right now and hopefully I'll survive until the end of my final paper on the 28th!!! Oh God, I am so extremely nervous right now...

Duh~ I got to get my brain spinning again right now... Isk~


Brain Brain
N-geL

Frenz...missing

I miss all of you, my fellow friends… suddenly I felt lonely, lonesome…

All of you are far away, some miles away, some really further…

When will we gather and laugh together like the old days?

Will we lend our shoulders to each other when sadness falls?

Why do we have to grow up and leave?

Why do we forget and ignore when we used to be close together?

I can’t seem to get in touch with anyone of you girls even when you girls are online…

Why? What happened? Am I forgotten? Am I worthless to be remembered and entertained?

Gosh… I never realize how things could turn out to be these bad…

Sigh~ I bet none of you will even realize I wrote this and this meant for you… None…